Dear ,
This newsletter comes with the beginning of a new year which is more than one reason to reflect on the one that we have just left.
What a strange year – 2021. Everyone hoped it would get better than 2020 but considering the worldwide situation I think we could say it got worse. Don’t get me wrong, for me personally, it was a good year with new connections from all over the globe, unplanned and unexpected. I am so grateful for the many gifts that came my way in the shape of wonderful people. And I know many others who would say that despite of the worrying and frightening situation, it was a good year in terms of introspection, growing consciousness and inner and outer transformation.
Now the doors to a new year are opening and we are asking ourselves: What will it bring?
While pondering on this question I came to the conclusion that it might bring what we focus on. And it made me reflect about what I did focus on in the last year and what I want to focus on in the new one.
I realized that my focus in 2021 was ambiguous.
Deep inside of me there was/is a knowing that something was/is not right, and I could not understand that others wouldn’t see it. Too much information, too many questions, too much insecurity, separation, and fear all around me. I researched, I tried to talk and communicate. Sometimes talking was possible, sometimes talking caused separation. I tried to be cautious about what I was sharing and yet sometimes it was too much. I thought sharing was important to spread information that was hidden or suppressed - only to understand that some simply didn’t want to know and others already knew about it. And in the end, I did understand that everyone is living in their own reality depending on our past, our believe patterns and experiences and that this is ok because this is life.
2021 has put me to a hard test of how authentic I live my personal life as a constellation teacher and facilitator. I must admit that in more than one circumstance I “failed”. But – after all I am only human, and it feels good to be “only” human.
Isn’t it interesting that a teacher of the “Orders of Love” and the “Orders of Helping” still can fall in this trap of “wanting to help”? I honestly admit that I did. It felt like not being responsible if I didn’t. It felt like it was my “task” to share what I knew or believed – only to understand that it isn’t.
The basis of my work is to “acknowledge what is”. And one of the “Orders of Love” is to respect the other one’s fate and to take responsibility for our own life. I think many of you will agree when I say that these might be the systemic principles that are the most difficult to follow.
2021 made me realize that I do not have to go on a “mission” what others should know and understand or not. It is their responsibility. We all make our choices, and our choices have consequences. I can only answer for mine.
All these reflections brought me insights about how I want my 2022 to be and where I want to put my focus on. I strongly believe that life responds to what we focus on. We cannot change the world. We cannot change the fate of humankind or of our loved ones. But we can change our own reality, our connections, the way we live and experience life.
I want my focus more and more to be on what heals, what connects, what increases hope and love and consciousness.
I want my focus to be on what is good in life, what we can be grateful for. Focus on the positive things I want to build for me, my loved ones and support building everyone who allows me to be part of their life journey.
It feels like a new journey for me, too. It is an exciting project, a way to discover even more in everyday life that “energy goes where attention flows”.
This is also the reason why I will withdraw from social media as much as possible and focus on building something new with whoever is ready to follow. I was deeply moved by so many of you already joining my new channel on Telegram – it was a big step into the unknown. But with you by my side it feels that something new has already started. Thank you so much.
My wish for all of you for 2022 is that – no matter in what circumstances you are – you will be able to focus on what really matters and you will find the inner healing and courage to become the amazing, shining beings you are meant to be.
Sending my best wishes in the spirit of love and reconciliation
Ursula |
